i had a talk with a couple of my recruits last week and got some pretty insightful comments from them.... one thought i was an underwear model.... hahaha.... but the worse was yet to come... i was stunned to find out that a lot of them thought i was *gulp* gay when they first saw me..... they told me that i had a cute face which many gays would find attractive.... wth.... now i know why.... this is very depressing news indeed....
went out with one of my colleague last night and we met up with a couple of my recruits, including those who thought i was gay.... we played pool and was actually planning to go clubbing, yes you heard me right, but one of the guys came down in slippers.... haha... so we settled for a small pub instead.... yea, i know most of you muz be thinking, riz going clubbing or pubbing? it juz isn't me right? haha... i guess i muz have been influenced by my army mates and not forgetting these new batch of recruits.... haha.... but don worry, i'm still the same old me.... with juz a few modifications here and there... heh, i'm talking as if i'm some kind of machine or something....
my colleague on the extreme left, and my recruits
my recruits, the guy on the left was the first to say that i had that "gay" face
my heart has juz stabbed again, this time deeper with a very blunt dagger.... well, i feel really stupid now... i'm juz a pathetic fool.... a pile of mess.... crestfallen i may be, but at least i'm glad that i know the truth now.... and i'm happy for the person.... i'm comtemplating juz letting the truth out, not because i think i still have a chance, but juz because i want to clear my heart of this heartache that has plagued me for so long.... i juz hope i'll have that chance to let it out....
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